#Truth: Things Don't Turn Out As Planned

5/11/2015

I was chatting with a good friend last night about how I feel as if I'm crawling out from under a rock. E will be nine months old on the 16th, and I'm just now getting back into my blogging and beauty routines. This conversation reminded me how when I was still pregnant with her, and even when she was first born, I had this vision that I would be able to blog {even just a little} about what was going on, do monthly updates that I could reflect back on later {or to help me remember when filling out the baby book.... that hasn't been filled in for months....}, I'd post photos, recommend baby/mommy products — I even had this very detailed post planned for baby wipes. We tried almost every brand of baby wipes at first and I had qualms with either the wipe, or the packaging, and I wanted to save other moms the hassle {and money}. I wanted to post more updates on babywearing, and chronicle our cloth diaper journey. Did these things happen? Nope. Not that it's any surprise to you, as my blog sat pretty dormant for several months.

I don't feel guilty about this. It couldn't be helped. And I'm sure you'll agree, my child's well being is far more important than daily or weekly blog posts. A lot happened in those early months, between her being premature, then needing a pretty big surgery, to my trying my version of home therapy to keep her development on point. {Being premature, she has been behind developmentally, but I have been working with her and we are having success!} Of course I wouldn't have imagined how swamped I'd be because she didn't sleep till she was six or seven months old. All that said, I do wish I had been able to blog more, because I would've loved to be able to look back on those memories down the road.

All these thoughts and feelings lead me to the realization that, as bloggers, and with life in general, things often do not turn out as planned. Yes, I had plans for what the blog would look like after I had my second child. Reality... it didn't happen. That's life! How many times have we had plans for one thing or another, and then for whatever reason(s), it doesn't follow through? I almost think God arranged those crazy first months to be that way so that I would be forced to slow down. I was stuck on the sofa for a good five months straight. Did I enjoy it? Not really. But what did it allow me? Snuggle time with my baby. Uninterrupted time to hold her, smell her, feel her, breathe her into my soul. When I look back on those precious moments, where all she wanted was to be in my arms, I don't even think about those blog posts that didn't get written. When I think of all the readers I've lost, how much further down the totem pole AMM has dropped, I don't get as upset, because those moments can't be made up. There's no do-overs.

And before you say I "shouldn't write for an audience," I say to you, I do write for me, but I also write for you. This is my social outlet. I do write with hopes others will see it, and enjoy it, and communicate back with me. I want to make friends and have opportunities. I like trying new recipes and sharing them with you. I like trying new beauty products and sharing looks with you. I like making printables and sharing them with you. So, you see, AMM isn't just about me.

Now that I am finding a new "normal," I'm starting with a goal of bi-weekly posts. I'm going to try to be more regular with my Facebook and Twitter accounts, and figure out why the heck I even have a Tumblr page.... {Any ideas what I should do with it?} I've always been interested in vlogging, but have always felt my life is too boring, but I think I may give it a try anyway. {What do you think about that?}

Anyway, that's all I have for you today. I think the overall message here is that you can have all the plans you want, but don't feel like a failure if they don't come to fruition. Some things aren't meant to go down the way you think they will/should. Sometimes there's a bigger, better plan ahead for you, which trumps your plan. Don't look at what didn't happen; look at what happened instead. {I didn't keep up with my blog, but my daughter is healthy, happy, and thriving!}

"The mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps." — Proverbs 16:9 {NASB}
"'For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' declares the Lord." — Isaiah 55:8 {NASB}

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